At my age you’d think I’d already be free in my sexuality. However, I was raised in a strict Christ like household. Daddy was an evangelist. Mommy was the good, my whole family is going to make it to heaven, Christ like woman. Both parents taught us morals and held us accountable to our faith.
My parents are wise and loving parents. They weren’t the, do what the Bible says or your going to HELL type of parents at all. My parents NEVER used fear as a way to manipulate our relationship with our God. They used knowledge and information to do that for them. They were excellent at strategic conversation.
For example, someone we know would get pregnant young. My mom would have a series of random conversations about generational curses, and how it was up to me to break the course. She talk about how she knew I would make the right decisions at the right time. She would love me then whisper, wait till you’re married to have babies A’Esha Goins.
Daddy would say something like, oh she’s pregnant. Well, I’m not worried about my kids doing that. They know Goins children don’t act/do that. Looking at us firmly then sending us off to do some chore.
Between the generational curse and my last name being my father’s, I was always subconsciously chastising myself for having sex. I was still having sex, I just wasn’t ALWAYS present during the act.
The Cannabis Industry has evolved my thinking and exposed me to new possibilities of living. Since I’ve been medicating with Cannabis I no longer suffer from depression, I attend more public events and now I am free in my sexuality.
About 2 years ago while I was working in the dispensary. One of the vendors introduced an intimacy oil that women could use internally. Testing products is the number one thing I did to become an effective Patient Consultant. The intimacy oil wasn’t any different.
My partner and I used the product according to it’s instructions. The product had no effect on my partner but I definitely experienced a unique and fun stimulation. I’d never been that stimulated befor. Although the experience was fun, my mind was still all over the place. We had an explosive exchange and I was still struggling to “stay in the moment.”
I decided to fix that. I wanted explosive AND freeing. The next day I took myself on a case study exploration. I was determined to have the most freeing AND explosive sexual exchange YET!!
I started experimenting with different strains of flowers and concentrates focusing on specific terpene profiles. My goal was to find something that relaxed my mind without over relaxing my body. My procedure was to micro dose using inhalation (smoking). I’d dose then wait 10 min to see if I’d get aroused. I believed if I found the right Cannabis combo, I could be free!
After 2 months of testing and experimenting I’d found a combination treatment that worked for me. I was FINALLY having freedom in my sex life. I was having the trifecta. I was able to enjoy my partner, let down inhibitions and explode!
The formula I use is (Cinex Flower and Outer Space Rosin in a glass pipe along with the intimacy oil as lubrication) …however, I suggest you find a formula that works best for you.
A’Esha “The GREAT” Goins